When you and I where at the party of one of my girlfriends, she was about to travel the world for half a year. You showed up but acted goofy. You where late and brought a friend. I figured that you and your mate had played a drinking game, turned out, you had been drinking alone. You couldn't say it to my face. If only you had.
There is was, staring at my face. I think it was about 2 a.m. You where baking eggs for me, and joked around with my friends. I looked in your pupil and kissed your forehead. You where so beautiful. I laughed with you until dawn when we finally fell asleep. Now I understand why you hesitated when I asked you to stay the night.
He was layed on your couch I remember, te photo was ugly and not even sharp. But you texted me after that they asked if I came as well. I had just met them all for the first time. I wondered why you had not asked me in advance of that moment, but little did I knew.
Your brother and I where having the most funny conversation ever. You didnt liked it. I went on and talked with some of your friends outside, I had a smoke with them. You didnt liked that either. You came standing besides me, guarding me. An old classmate started to talk to me, and she asked, "if we were a couple". You and I both heard it. Once I said it was complicated you turned your head. Yet you did not mentioned it when we later that night, stood in the moonlight, giving the other one a good nights kiss.
He was playing guitar, the others were singing and you were keeping me warm. We dat close to the fire, I loved how your hand kept caressing me. Later that night in your car you asked me "if there was anything missing, if I ever missed things in my life?" I said there was nothing I missed, I started with nothing. I had more then I ever had...
Now I know, I was missing you. You where slowly fading away.
If you'd ask me know, I would say, even after all, that I am missing you. I keep holding on to these pictures... Yet they won't ever wrap their arms around me, the same way you used to.
|If only our photobook was not yet filled,|
If only I could spend another moment,
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