Tuesday, December 31, 2013

Have you seen me lately?

Have you seen me lately?
Cuz it seems to me,
I no longer see,
The man you used to be,
Have you seen me lately?
Cuz it seems to me,
You cant see,
Anything that used to be,
Have you seen me lately?
Cuz it seems to be,
You're falling free,
Cuz it seems to me,
Were not the same we used to be,
Have you seen me lately?
Cuz it seems to me,
You're not the man you used to be,
You're half that man lately,
So I cant be,
The one waiting to see,
If someday further maybe,
You could be,
The one again for me,
You were supposed to be,
The one for me,
But not lately,
You were supposed to be,
Anything but alike me,
You weren't supposed to be,
Cuz you mean to much to me,
Have you seen me lately?
Cuz you're face is all I see...

Have you seen me lately?
"I've seen love die so many times,
When it deserves to be alive."























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Friday, December 27, 2013

Grandparents

My granddad,
In his rocking chair,
His laugh,
So sweet,
So familliar,
It seems weird,
To one day,
Being unable to see his beard,
But he can't stay,
One day we all,
Go our way,
Up into the sky...

My grandma,
Telling bout the news,
Old lady,
A family,
Left with just fews,
Her face,
With this grace,
So strange that one day,
I can only talk to her,
Trough a grave stone grey,
She'll also go away...

My grandparents,
Once,
They will have to go,
And when I have grandkids my own,
I will follow,
Into the light,
With them in my sight...

Grandparents together in Australia, Brother and sister love.
















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Darling dont ever change

As sweet as sugar,
As pure as snow,
As innocent as a child,
Please darling dont ever change,

As warm as summer,
As light as a feather,
As flexible as waves,
Please darling don't ever change,

As help full as a hand,
As silent as closed lips,
As patient as an angel,

I could ask you to please never change,
But that would hold you down,
So if you promise to never change so I don't recognize you anymore,
But to never stay the same either,
I'll promise to be you're best friend,
Till forever comes to an end.

Darling, don't ever change. -- Berlin wall




















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The dairy of me

The dairy of me,
Out there...
In this world somewhere,

The dairy of me,
For everyone to see,
The inside of me...

The dairy of me,
Puttings thoughts to a page,
Like creating my own stage,

The dairy of me,
For you to read...
My mind's feed,

The dairy of me,
Words from my heart,
How strange to see them start,
Rising up in chart...

The dairy of me,
In a blog top-ten,
Rhymes written by my pen...

The dairy of me,
Was actually ment to be,
For one to see,
The hidden part of me...
My mystery...

I'm handing you the key, 
To the dairy of me.


I'm handing you the key, to the dairy of me.






















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Little brother

My little brother,
Still has the whole world to discover,
There is more then just another,
Or look at the other,
He never understands,
He's got it all in his hands,
Walking without sights of fences,
Always thinking in cant's,
If he would just,
Forget about the lust,
Stop acting out this must,
I'd give him all my trust,
To concour what belongs,
To the smart and the strong,
Not the sing-a-longs,
Don't let anyone else do you're chores,
Go into the world and make, break and take what is yours,
Don't you dare to end up sweeping floors,
When this universe in front is full of open doors..

My little brother owns an universe of open doors.














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Thursday, December 26, 2013

Dad's advise

He taught me how to ride a bike,
He taught me how to hike,
He helps me with my homework assignments,
He helps me with his helping hands,
He tells me his youth story,
He tells me not to worry,

He tells me everything is gonna be fine,
Cuz your'e a child of mine,
Honey trust me,
You'll learn in time,
Eventually you see,
What will be will be,
No matter what road you choose,
Whether win or lose,
Either way,
I'll always stay,
To promise its gonna be okay,

He taught me how to ride a bike,
He taught me how to hike,
He helps me with my homework assignments,
He helps me with his helping hands,
He tells me his youth story,
He tells me not to worry,

I don't know,
What way life will go,
But left or right,
Hi advise is my guiding light,
Babe never worry or be sorry,
Make sure you write you're own life story.

Dad and I in berlin with the wall and a cigarette...
















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Used to know

You and I
We used to be
Like twins
Best friends
Till the good ends

You and I
We used to be
Like lovers
Holding hands
Till the lovin ends

You and I
We used to be
Like one
So similair
Till the familiarity ends

You and I
I used to know
You
You so well
Anything bout you I could tell
I remember it all to well
Now were just friends
Begining at the ends

You and I
We used to be close
It froze
Now were just friends
Were strangers with memories
How can someone I used to now
So well
Now be just a stranger to me...

All of my favorite places are haunted by ghosts,
of what we used to be.





















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Wednesday, December 25, 2013

My heart

My heart,
I would trade my heart,
Trade my heart for yours,
My heart for yours to take away,
To take away you're pain,
You're pain I would carry,
I would carry it for you,
For you because,
Because i care more for you're heart,
Care more for you're heart then mine,
Then mine happiness,
Happiness or grace,
Grace is what you need,
What you need to breathe,
To breathe I'd give you everything,
Give you everything for when,
When you find yourself breathless,
Breathless you would run into my arms,
Run into my arms,
Run into my arms,
And I'll carry you,
Carry you through the night,
Everything will be alright,
I'll hold you tight,
Till the morning light,
So when the world is crashing,
Crashing all around you,
Around you they start to run,
Start to run to me,
Run to me,
Run to me,
And out of breath I'll save you,
Save you because two,
Two is better then one.

I would give away, risk or trade every heart I own in life,
For you, I would gamble it all on you.





















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Tuesday, December 24, 2013

Christmas

I could sing all I want for christmas is you,
But that isn't something I do,
I could say it isn't christmas without you,
But that doesnt sound like something I do,
I could stay awake and think about what you would do,
But it isn't something I do,
Do you?
Do you think about all the Things we planned?
All the thing except the end?
For there were christmas thoughts when you were mine,
There Where christmas thoughts in Which we were fine,
Dreams when youre mine...
In time we will be fine,
In time...

All I want for christmas is.... you. 




















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Monday, December 23, 2013

Addicted to us

I begged you for an hour,
An still you cant find the power,
To put this down,
To end our so called friendship,
Am I making you trip?!
You said Talking to me,
Is like XTC,
But I begged you for an hour,
How come you cant find the power,
To put this down,
To end our suffering,
Weren't we just a fling?!
You say you want hope,
How dare you to hand me dope,
After I begged you for an hour,
Why is it you cant find the power,
To put this down,
To end this loving feed,
Stop offering me weed,
You scream I'm all you need,
I'm a one of a kind speed,
I will beg you for another hour,
And if then you havent found the power,
To put this down,
To end everything and anything,
It will be my decision to forget,
The taste of you lips like cigarette...

John Green Best We Heart It Quote Like Ever.
















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My way of a defer

Im sorry in advance,
Im not sure if for an apology I ever get the chance,
So im sorry in advance,

I don't mean to be a bitch,
I don't mean to bring you down,
Its just this crazy town,
I didn't want you to go weird,
I didn't want you to go blur,
Its just my way of a defer,

If I could I would take away all you're problems,
But that would just stick a bigger problem to you hands,
So ill just stay with sorry when I have the chance,
To vanish myself from you're future plans,

I don't mean to be a bitch,
I don't mean to bring you down,
Its just this crazy town,
I didn't want you to go weird,
I didn't want you to go blur,
Its just my way of a defer,

Im sorry acting out,
Im sorry if I scream load,
My mind is just frozen,
I never wanted you get hurt,
I never wanted you to feel like you were only a flirt,
But I just cant accept that im the chosen,
For you need to be free,
Instead you begging for fee,
As a good friend i need to let it be,

Im sorry in advance,
Im not sure if for an apology I ever get the chance,
So im sorry in advance,
Im sorry,
Im sorry,
Im sorry,
Im so sorry...

Sorry, sorry, sorry, I'm so sorry, sorry, sorry, T.S.





















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Lot too ask

Its a lot too ask
That you won't forget me
Im sure her you won't
So how about if you only remember me
For time to time
Wondering if i'm fine
Wondering what is you were mine

When you hear the music surrender
When beat bounces surrender
When you feel the emotion surrender
Surrender, let it all out,
All that you dream about, shout,
Give in, alive, livin
But no matter or whatever always remember

Late night dancing in the kitchen
Chocolate kisses,
All out twin wishes,
Feet moving weird,
Red surprise beard,

When you hear the music surrender
When beat bounces surrender
When you feel the emotion surrender
Surrender, let it all out,
All that you dream about, shout,
Give in, alive, livin
But no matter or whatever always remember

I will never forget
Youre last words said
You spoke out load
Making me so proud
Thank you for loving me
Even when it wasn't ment to be

Thank you for loving me even if it was not ment to be,
If it is not to much too ask, please remember me, all we used to be.
















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Sunday, December 22, 2013

Travel time

Yesterday night you stole what was left of my pride,
An empty space is all that been left behind,
Now im kinda clueless,
Like a denzel in distress,
All that remains inside is emotional mess,
Frustration rising up till im about to crash,

Your'e the button on my coat,
The river in which I fload,
You're the Milk and im the oad,
The lacy shoe string,
Your'e the comy old swing,
The finger and the ring,

You tell me bout all the Things you've missed,
And how its for me all you ever wished,
But don't you read from my face don't you see,
It not what i want to be this conversation isn't about me,
You're time was wasted lost and it is the most precious cost,

You're the button on my coat,
The river in which I fload,
You're the Milk and im the oad,
The lacy shoe string,
You're the comy old swing,
The finger and the ring,

Didn't they told you it dangerous to try to travel time,
There's a possibility you change Things, that are perfectly fine,
Like for instance my heart,
Or us when you turn back time there is no guaranty for my part,
So please don't let the demons start,
I cant stand this war,
For that we've gone to far...

You could try and travel time,
But the door is locked with a heavy key,
Love as pure eternity.























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Anyone is family of everyone

Printed shirt and cowboy boots,
Those are my roots

It has nothing to do with blood,
It doesn't make someone good

Don't you see anyone could be,
In the right State of mind youre family

Its about love and trust,
Not about a birthday must

It about the little Things,
That family brings,

They always stay close,
The one's you chose

To be standing next to you,
There isn't a thing they wouldn't do

Always there when you need a friend,
Or maybe just a helping hand

Forever on you're Side
Talking bout you with pride

Cause thats whats family is supposed to do,
just for being you...!

I love you mommy! 
















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Take care

When I go back in flashes,
I wish he didn't press Send,
I wish he took a car and lent,
Me a moment to say,
Hey babe you know,
I don't know,
So take care,
Take care babe,
Take care of yourself,
But he didn't,
He couldn't take it,
To see my face,
Was it really that hard,
To do the right thing,
To end this fling?
You said you would,
Do anything you could,
Then please whisper to me,
Take care,
Take care babe,
For that all,
That all that you should,
You should've said,
But you forgot,
You forgot to shoot,
Me when you shot,
I'm sure you don't want to,
But you need to,
Because of me,
And because of what we could be,
You don't have to be true,
It just has to come from you,
Tell me to,
Take care,
Take care babe,
Whisper to me,
Take care,
Those words I can bare,
Not that burden you leave me with,
The pacing back and forth makes me stiff,
I can't breathe,
I can't leave,
And if you knew me,
Like I know you,
Like the back of my hand,
You would understand,
You would say,
By the way,
I wish you could stay,
But it wouldn't be fair,
So babe take care,
I'll see you when I get there,
My dolly babe take care...

If you had only said take care, I would've understand...





















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Mommy

It's in the moment when she cradles me through the night,
It's in the moment when her advise is all I wish for,
It's in the moment when she holds me close and kisses my nose,

That I know that love at first sight exists,
Ever since I laid my eyes on her I became pretty sure,
Out of her only love consists,
Whether wrong of right,
She will always be on my side,
Her lessons teach me all that needed to be taught,
Not what to think but how to make a thought,
You can't see these feelings,
They are made to feel,
Only when experienced in you're heart it's real,

It's in the moment when she tells me sweet story's,
It's in the moment when she eases my trouble,
It's in every moment spend together,
Mom I'll love you forever!


I love you to the moon and back...
















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Friday, December 20, 2013

Better place

Were the new generation,
With some numb sensation,
It seems that Starbucks,
And saying school sucks,
Are the latest drugs,

Our future love life's all have an easy summary,
We only marry, Because were to scary,
For a real marriage,
We divorce out of lack of knowledge,
Not knowing what to do when there's an edge,

It just makes me so frustrated,
This world filled with pain and hatred,
No even close to moving ahead,
Inside all souls are dead,

It's all about money and fame,
And it's always the parents we blame,
Oh what a shame,
Were losing this beautiful world we built,
To anger, war and guilt,

Please anyone in you're future plans,
Give you're soul a chance,
Making this world a better place,
Simply by putting a simply on you're face...

Stay positive, be happy, live free, and soon you'll be in a better place.




















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If you where mine...

Just trow her out out out,
Kick her out,
She's no longer you're love,
It's over,
She's out,
So let me in in in,
Let us begin,
Just let me in,

She hurt you,
She made you sweat,
She broke you're heart,
Isn't it sad,
Don't you know that,
If you where mine,
I would always care,
If you where mine,
Nothing we wouldn't dare,
If you where mine,
I could never scare,
If you where mine,
You'd still be perfectly fine...

Just trow her out out out,
Kick her out,
She's no longer you're love,
It's over,
She's out,
So let me in in in,
Let us begin,

I couldn't watch,
As she calls you,
Unwilling to catch,
But I'd do,
Don't you know that,
If you where mine,
I would stand by you're side,
If you where mine,
Feelings I would never hide,
If you where mine,
I'll carry you through the night,
If you where mine,
You'd still be perfectly fine...

Just trow her out out out,
Kick her out,
She's no longer you're love,
It's over,
She's out,
So let me in in in,
Let us begin,

Don't cut out string,
I'll promise,
If we begin,
If you let me in,
If you are mine,
You'll always be perfectly fine...

We click, so darling only for you to know,
If you where mine...





















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naturally

I lost myself today,
I lost myself in us,
I lost myself in love,
I'm lost in love,

You're talk so lyrical,
Makes me hysterical,
Don't pull back,
Don't give resistance,
I hate the gray black,
Upcoming distance,
Stop calling me names,
Stop giving memories frames,

Even when part,
You habituate my heart,
Make me dream,
While I'm awake,
Seeing the unseen,
No heartache,
Nothing to be afraid,
Won't need a bandaid,

You look so warm,
Unable to do me harm,
All you gave,
All you do,
I crave,
For all of you,
It comes naturally,
Can't you see...
Baby?!

I lost myself today,
I lost myself in us,
I lost myself in love,
I'm lost in you...

It is a big world, But I keep getting lost in you.















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Tuesday, December 17, 2013

Don't you ever dare to say

You asked me to let my feeling stay,
And then you told me to just walk away,
So don't you ever dare to say,
I just did it my way,
Because my own choice,
Wouldn't been to hide the noise,
It would've been to give you a voice,
To work it out you and me,
Together stronger we will be,
Just to make you see,
That we're for better or worse a perfect we,
You asked me to let my feeling stay,
I did it anyway,
And then you told me to just walk away,
So for you I took a stray,
But now don't you ever dare to say,
That just walked away,
I did exactly what you wanted,
For you're happiness is the only thing that I wanted...

Don't you ever dare to say for I think,
Nobody feels the way I do about you. 





















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eye to eye

We're standing in the same room,
Same place as where we first started,
First time not only face to face,
But also eye to eye,
you made it disappear,
You put you're lips close to mine,
You're cheek touches mine,
Putting you're lips another split second close,
As long as they don't touch,
As long as we don't kiss,
We should be able to be friends right?
We could laugh and make jokes,
We could talk and drink,
We could do anything but kiss,
Anything but start to miss,
The other half of the perfect fit lips,
The arms around our hips,
The other half a couple,
That was never coupled,
We're standing in the same room,
The same place as we first started,
Maybe if we didn't parted,
We still stayed here,
We still stood together,
Face to face and eye to eye,
I'm forgetting all the reasons why,
I'm forgotten why I must forget you...

I am forgetting why I must forget you.





















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Monday, December 16, 2013

He tried to...

He tried to change me,
You didn't...
He tried to lie to me,
You didn't...
He tried to fool me,
You didn't...
He tried to wear me down,
You didn't...
He tried to take the best of me,
You didn't...
You never did,
And I hope you never will,
For I'll love you till,
Till you make me cry,
So try not to give me a reason why,
Not to give me a reason to cry...
He tried to break me,
You made him fail...

Boys in books are better.














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Don't hate me for loving you

As the other leave,
As a last breathe,
As truth instead deceive,
I told you,
Don't walk away now...

When no one's here,
When stars appear,
When the sky is clear,
I asked you,
Don't turn you back now,

If you're all alone,
If this is gone,
If you move on,
I want you to,
Don't hate me for loving you...

So don't walk away now,
And don't turn you're back now,
And please don't hate me for loving you...

don't hate me for loving you.











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He, You, Me

He asked me on a date,
I went,
Told myself to get over you,
Told myself this is what I'm supposed to do,
But there is no one quite like you...

He tried to steal a kiss,
But I couldn't,
Told myself to get over it,
It's what supposed to be but I couldn't,
No one comes near you...

He told me he was in love with me,
I was silent,
As he waited for reply,
There was only one reason why,
No one comes as close as you...

He said that he would wait,
That my loyalty was something special,
Yet it isn't,
I'm just in denial because he isn't supposed to,
He shouldn't do,
For nothing works as good as me & you...

He apologized for it all,
Even when he was the one to fall,
I turned around and took my phone,
Not to scare him away or to be alone,
But because it is you I need to call,
Maybe I shouldn't or maybe it's supposed to,
Because I can't settle for anyone but you...

So I'll myself what I'm supposed to do,
In a split second I would choose for you...
There is no one out there for me when it's not you.

not even for one second we thought, that this what we had could,
at some point in time get lost,
but it did. 















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dying

I drowning on solid ground,
I see the ground underneath my feet,
But I can't feel it,
I'm swimming with my feet,
I'm gasping for air,
But it appears to be no where,
I'm rowing with my arms,
But no one hears the alarms,
There is no oxygen in the substance I breathe,
My thoughts just disappear,
The tears feel like acid on my skin,
The tears are burning in,
The scars and battle wounds,
All the bumps and bruises,
I'm losing that one piece that was left,
You stole it,
Haunting theft,
I'm dead inside,
I've aint got nothing,
Nothing left to lose,
I'm drowning on solid ground,
Please just let me die,
Let me go home...

There's no air, no air...





















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Till the shine wears off

All these stupid things we did,
It was just a matter of time for one of us got hit,
And hurt...

All these nights we stayed up late,
refrigerator light magic we made,
kitchen ballroom...

Oh how I'd love to keep you till I'm old,
But it's shine always fades,
Even if it's real gold,
The shine wears off...

All the stars we saw,
For you I broke every single law,
I've ever had...

All the kisses you blowed,
The pictures you showed,
To me...

Oh how I'd love to keep you till I'm old,
But it's shine always fades,
Even if it's real gold,
The shine wears off...

I'd love to keep you till I'm old,
Boy you're one made from gold!

just waiting till the shine wears off















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Sunday, December 15, 2013

Meaning

Words mean so little,
When spoken to late,
So speechless without faith,
Meaningful word without meaning,
No more believe in you're believing,
Yet you're eyes are so deceiving,
it's so tragic,
The fact that we had magic,
There is no fight,
We stranded at the end,
So sad it's gone,
We stumble on silent alone,
We were just brief,
But for what was I still grief,
You're this badass,
Making me skip class,
Our own fire we used start,
Drunkin on holy water,
Laughing a little louder,
Acting a little prouder,
Light up each others hearts,
Not breaking it to parts,
Still stumbling on,
Moving on seems so wrong,
Looking back summer seemed so long,
I wish I could repeat it like you're favorite song.

People change, memories dont.
Words are just air, actions speak louder.

















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Time

You ask me if I would wait,
Hoping my answer is filled with faith,
Hoping I'll say yeah sure great!
But it's not okay,
I would never ask you to fade yourself away,
It's not even close to fine,
How dare you to take whats mine?
Take my precious time,
I can never spend it again,
So think seriously when,
You're asking me how about then?
For when I sat I do,
I need commitment from you,
I need to know,
If there is still room to grow,
So tell me... What will it be?
Lovely together or happily free...
We will see,
What will be will be...

Time goed by quickly, with the miles you leave behind,
Make sure you don't waste miles as easily as you can with time.





















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Black and white

You and me,
City lights to see,
Walking unknown roads,
See the floating boats,
Holding hands down the street,
Feeling nothing underneath,
When we drive,
Feeling more alive,
Wondering round,
To see if one of us found,
A home in this big old city,
If not, that's pity,
But if I do I take you with me,
To show you how it could be,
And if you do,
You do it to,
Black and white,
I've gotten to much and you to little pride,
You've give to much and I to little I hide,
I'm a believer and you're a dreamer,
I'm the do it, and you're the how about the hit?
We fit like ying and yan,
Don't you think we can,
Because you started the conversation,
I thought with all this frustration,
But actually it was so sweet,
If you take the steering wheel,
I'll let you lead,
Just make me feel,
That you're the one that leads,
But the drumming beats,
No more standing on you're feet,
Cause now you're gonna lead.

dont walk, dance. notebook again, lets make plans.

















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Baby girl

He said listen baby girl,
Don't you worry,
You're pretty face,
One day soon,
He'll be sorry,
When he sees,
The image of you're face,
In every space,
Hears you're voice,
In every place,
And he'll come back,
Because of you,
All for you,
It seems so long ago,
So far away,
But I still hope,
The words are true,
Because I care for you...

She said listen baby girl,
Better lost than never loved at all,
But she didn't had to make the fall,
She doesn't hear you call,
It's easy to say anything,
When you don't know everything,
They said listen baby girl,
Even if it's not what you wanted,
He still led,
You're life ahead,
Now you know,
That if he loves you,
And you love him,
Then maybe that is in love,

So I said to you listen babe,
You don't own me anything,
You paid me well,
In loving memories,
Underneath the summer night skies,
With you're sweet eyes,
You paid me well,
Before I fell,
Know I'm just left,
Remembering it all to well.

My mind and memory remember it all to well.




















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Grandma

My grandma was supposed to turn 80 today,
Whether alive or death it's okay,
It's just sad that I never got the chance,
To say whether in or out my life,
Whether as sweet as sugar or cutting me like a knife,
She still ment much to me,
I was never able to made her understand,
She ment much to me,
She was just to sick,
And a child couldn't stick,
She never wanted to met me,
She once said she wished I wasn't born,
Cause I'm after my mom,
Her biggest torn,
That I was born,
And I survived,
That I was alive,
Ment that mom and dad were connected,
For the rest of their life's,
She thought of it as too sad,
She hurt us over and over,
She lost her husband and her lover,
And then she lost us,
She lost her own blood,
Because there was nothing we could,
Do to make her love us,
She didn't loved me,
She never did now I see,
It's so sad to me,
That I never name her as family,
But I think anyone is more like that,
Then her,
She was one of my own,
Not then and not when I grown,
She would've never been proud of me,
Not even if I won every price,
Not even if I could do everything she couldn't,
She was just to cold,
She just grew bitter and old...
I'm sorry I always failed,
In making you see,
You still ment much to me...

We only had limited time, I wished you had spend it on smiling with me,
Instead of lying about me... Sickness doesn't define you,
You do.






















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Everyone talkes

She walked over,
And talked over,
And laughed over,
All over you,
Right in front of me,
She was trying to,
Say to me that,
I should run away,
Now that I still can,

He asked all about,
He thought he knew all about,
He assumed all about,
All about you,
Right there next to me,
He was trying to,
Say to me,
Just slowly let you fade,
For he was afraid,
I might feel fooled or played,
Just let it fade,
Now that I still can,

They made jokes,
They made fun,
They made gossip,
All over you,
Right there in the same place,
Can you imagine the look on my face,
I told them it's not easy,
They should try to understand,
But more than that I can't,
Now that I still can,
Now that they still say,
Hey girl say him I said hi,
Now I still get by,

Everyone talks,
And everyone walks,
But don't let them walk over you,
When you don't want it to,
Just remember in the back of you're mind,
That I never ran away,
Even though there were many who say,
That I've should have,
But I don't look back in regret,
I think it's a good fact,
That I ignored when they said,
Run away,
Cause I'd stay...

Everyone talks, everyone does gossip.
















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Let's go

You told me it mattered,
You, me, we,
You said so,
Yes you did,
And those words,
Make me pick you,
Out of a crowd,
Filled with thousands,
I'll would recognize,
You anywhere...
So let's go babe,
Take what you ask for,
Make me beg for more,
So let's go babe,
Bring me down,
Make a mess,
So let's go babe,
I'll be yours,
If you'll be mine...

Lets go and get lost...
















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Friday, December 13, 2013

fairytales fails

When I was younger,
In fairytales... They never told that prince charming,
Is not only enchanting and heartwarming,
There had to be a warning,
For the haunting feeling,
Thats getting left behind,
When the tale comes to an end,
And the fairy's wings are bend,
When there is no more magic,
And all that remains is a story too tragic,
To ever be hold,
The story is just to cold,
There will never be spoken off,
It's been seen enough,
No more fairytale,
Just breathe in and out,
Inhale,
You can't live without,
Having hope for a fairytale,
Even if every time you get you're hopes up,
It comes to a fail,
Just try to never grow up,
Keep the believe,
In all that you could achieve,
Memorize the words,
Being singed by birds,
Keep holding on,
To the last song...
Keep waiting for prince charming,
One day he'll appears without a warning...

One day prince charming will come and take me away.





















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Good

I still have our fist date recites,
Remember the songs beats,
All the hours you kept me awake,
In those days there was nothing fake,
It used to be so pure and simple,
Like a skin clear without an pimple,
Thinking about you all the time,
You fit my poems like the most perfect rhyme,

It used to be good,
Just like it should,
It was good,
No matter in what mood,
You made me laugh,
And it was good,
Just like it could,

Watching movies in my room,
Trying to make me eat a mushroom,
But I don't like them at all,
I hate them the way you love football,
Talking about school,
Acting silly in the pool,
Holding my hand in a crowded street,
When you sleep listening to you're heartbeat,

It used to be good,
Just like it should,
It was good,
No matter in what mood,
You made me laugh,
And it was good,
Just like it could,

You don't care if my plate is empty or full,
You never give me a pull,
I've fallen in love with you for that,
Thank god we met,
I've never ever saw you like this,
I'd never thought you would be the one,
Until that fist kiss,
I came undone,
I'll never be the same,
I love the fact that you're the one to blame...

You're worth the try my love, you are so unbelievably worth the try!





















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Thursday, December 12, 2013

Jimmy Choo's

It took a long time finding out,
You're all I dream about,
I waited my whole life for someone like you,
It took four months,
finding out,
It was a mistake letting you walk out,
Not knowing,
It would be so hard going,
Finding out,
Home is closer where you are,
Where you are,
Don't you remember when,
We were laughing like best friends then,
I'm sure we can be,
Like that again,
Friends, lovers, all of it,
You're the perfect shoe fit,
My own customized Jimmy Choo's,
You're the one I would choose,
No matter what other pair of shoe's.

My own customized Jimmy Choo's no matter what other pair of shoes...



















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Everyday

Everyday when I walk pass,
That MacDonalds glass,
You pass my mind,
Every time I think I break,
You're voice tells me it's fake,
So sweet, soft and kind,
Every now and then without any pride,
You let me taste you're light,
The brightness almost makes me blind,
Every memory that pops,
It makes my heartbeat stops,
Someone like you is hard to find,
Please don't leave me,
Please don't deceive me,
Please don't leave me behind,
For the more that I look around,
The more I seem to find,
You're all that I'm looking for...

You don't know it, But I know, And thats all that matters,
Darling, You do the most adorable things without realizing.






















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Luggage

Slow late night sweet talk,
Warm future conversations,
With all you're patience,

We giggle, we cry,
Without the try,
Of finding a reason why,
No need to know,
Just let the thought flow,
Let yourself go,

Without fear, There is no courage,
Life is about luggage,
It shouldn't make you scary,
Together we can carry,
Every weight trying to weigh us down,

Forever you can live,
Not by getting but give,
Make a home in you're heart,
For thats always where you need to start,
I will carry you around,
Until we've found,
A place to be,
Infinity, you and me.


For when you'll find you're way back to me I'll carry all my
love around for you just in case, you'll ever come back...
















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Inching pinch

There we stood again tonight,
Just an inch away,
No words said,
Nothing shared,
Only faking smiles,
Covered crying eyes,
Can't one of us be wise?
Not focus on the fear,
But the price,
Why wouldn't it be able,
To out the verdict east and stable,
I could be more than friends,
Without future plans,
I can, so what about you?
Why are you making it so hard,
To let all you ask me for start,
Why are you running for cover,
When you keep saying I'm you one-in-a-lifetime-lover?
For I never said those kind of words,
They make me frightened,
Yet somehow it feel lightened,
To be on someones mind,
And not being first te get left behind,
So just go and stand you're man,
Or make a new plan,
Without me in it,
Without one of us taking the hit,
Go and collect you're jar of hearts,
Collect all of these girls favorite parts,
Leave them cold,
And make you're wings unfold,
Look in the mirror again,
After all the attention when,
You're ready to look and say,
That you're gonna make it a good day,
But don't say to me or her talk to you later,
Because it's always to late for later te come,
And most of the times,
Then you're gone,
To collect new shiny dimes,
To find yourself shiny eyes,
So stop saying talk to you later,
Because it's like a bomb making me left as a crater,
No more later unless you take it in you're own hands,
To become anything more or less than just friends,
It's just a little bit away an inch,
But oh my my that inch make quite an inching pinch...

It's like we can't pass the line,
Like it would be a crime,
Oh oh this inching pinch...























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Didn't I told you..

Didn't I told you,
... There is nothing you can't so,
... I would wait for you,
... It's in the little things you do,
In the middle of the night by the church,
I had this huge urge,
To tell as if my heart is on my sleeve,
That for this lost I grief,
Because I still believe,
One day we won't part,
We stay,
I hear it in the littlest tones from the words you say,
We could be okay,
You'er voice hangs when you stay my name,
When you try to give me the blame,
For you told me you're were trouble,
Gosh it sound so double,
You say you want me,
But I can't do what I want,
For time says it can't,
You think I'm ridicules,
Have you ever heard you're own spoken words...
Maybe than you see,
It has nothing to do with me,
All we talk about, all we do,
It's all about you,
Even when you say what I should do,
It always has something to do about you,
I should because you couldn't,
I need to because you shouldn't,
I need to promise what you can't,
That doesn't sound fair now does it?
It's not like I wouldn't do it anyway,
It's just so unkind to say,
Or to deny when I tell,
About someone who want to know me well,
You're only response is to say it's so hard,
So I can't try to find a new start,
Because for you it's too hard,
How do you think I feel when I offer you,
Anything you could never do,
I gave you a wildcard,
A score without chart,
It's not good enough,
So stop making this so rough,
Choose me or let me go,
For I can't keep running after you're shadow,
It's not something I must swallow,
You need to choose,
What you wanna win and lose,
You're biggest problem is you can't choose,
Start honey, It's gonna be hard,
I know for you it's hard,
But someday you're gonna have to start...

If I told you I missed you, would you come back?
We heart it quotes....






















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Once upon a time

He was trying to talk to me all night,
I asked you for help with my pride,
With that one question mark,
You answering faster than a shark,
It all begon,
Looking me straight in the eye,
No more reasons why,
Only feelings as a first glance,
A brand new future chance,

I'm so glad that,
Once upon a time,
I had you,
And all the things that you do,
I'm so glad that,
Once upon a time,
You had me,
And the vision of what I see,
The premonition of what you could be,
I'm so glad that,
Once upon a time,
We met,
And for all we've had,

Now that you are drawn to my past,
And the ghost of you is all that will last,
I'm telling you,
Like ripping of a bandaid, 
Quick and fast,
That you're the only thing I got right,
The only one worthy the sight,

I'm so glad that,
Once upon a time,
I had you,
And all the things that you do,
I'm so glad that,
Once upon a time,
You had me,
And the vision of what I see,
The premonition of what you could be,
I'm so glad that,
Once upon a time,
We met,
And for all we've had,

No more one direction perspective,
You've got to take what you give,
Burn, learn and live,
I could never figured it out on my own,
So babe stop fighting you're demons alone,
Don't you know were all scarred,
You shouldn't give up just because it is hard,
Just try to see and understand,
Just like you I'm scared, And I can't,
But still I'm trying, I'm lending you my hand,
I don't care if were not in a relationship,
As long as my name sticks to you're lip.

You are my once upon a time...















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22

You turned 22,
You couldn't stay 21 forever,
But they say "never say never",
Cause you were,
As 21 as anyone could be,
Young, wild & free,
You've got the key to life, This amazing drive,
Kind of like a leaders strive,
You don't jump and fall, you dive,
I've never seen anyone so alive,

You turned 22 tonight,

Partying in the neon light,
Music louder than height,
In that moment the fire inside,
Will burst and ignite,
One night you're infinite,

22 is merely just a number,

It's mysterious yet so serious,
Aging it's ordinary and scary,
Its beauty and duty all at the same time,
I know some nights you feel scared,
Thinking you're unprepared,
Of the future that lays ahead,
In late hours wondering,
Don't you recall everything I said?
Over thinking in you're new bed...
I can't predict or tell you what you are gonna be,
So I'll just stick to what I've come to understand
,Life is all about what you can,
Not what you can't,
In time you'll figure out,
Nothing good comes from doubt,
Maybe it's just one crazy idea, But couldn't life be all about what you want to see?

You're gonna become 23 this whole next year,

One of these day's it's gonna become clear,
You're you're own life's engineer,
You can let tears and fears... Appear as well as letting them disappear,
Everything no matter how hard is worth the road down to travel,
Of you're hearts unknown feelings that unravel...

You're 22,

I envy you,
Promise me you'll peruse,
All these joyful feelings,
Those lifting you higher than ceilings,
That you'll be thinking out of the box,
Be unafraid of the ticking clocks,
Never let something form a block,
Then every door will open for you're knock,
If you can't promise a miracle or something unbelievable,
At least promise me that you'll stay beautiful...


play the moments, pause the memories, stop the pain,
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Tuesday, December 10, 2013

It was only just a dream

If I'm not worth you, the attention,
If I'm not worth you, the love,
If I'm not worth you, the time,
Why are you stil here?
You can go like the rest just dissapear,
Cause for me it is very clear,
I'm not even worth a tear,

If I'm not worth you, the gifts,
If I'm not worth you, the thoughts,
If I'm not worth you, the dream,
Haven't you seen?
I can never come clean,
Achter my life so mean,
Babe, just walk away,
I'll pretent you were just a dream,
I'll pretent losing you was just a dream,
It was only a dream,
Just a dream,
Never ment for daylight to be seen,
Only just a dream..

It was only just a dream, never ment for daylight to be seen.















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Occur

I'm asking you, didn't it?
Didn't it ever occur?
Occur that maybe I wasn't sure?
Wasn't sure what to do?
What to do about you...
Because I'm not,
Not sure more insecure,
More insecure of me,
Me, Who I'm supposed to be?
Am I supposed to belong?
Belong to you?
You and me,
Me and you together,
Together were we,
We we we we,
Sounds pretty similar,
Similar to me accepting,
Accepting it's for the better,
Better for you then me,
Better for you then we.

Sometimes you just have to accept that getting no message is also a message.





















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