Tuesday, July 22, 2014

Myself in the rawest form

I never dared to show you myself to you as pure as I am or in my rawest form,
I never was completely naked not even when I took of my clothes,
For I never give you the full sight of my soul...
Wasn't it stupid of me to think that you might never could have the ability to love me just as me?
Me with all my broken parts and the scars on my heart, 
Me when I am grumpy or clingy or me when I am an insecure little girl that needs some reassurance...?
How could I not wrap my mind around the fact that my imperfections and flaws could have been just as beautiful as yours? 
That maybe for all those dorky and Unique things that I love about you,
You would one day love me like that too?
For isn't is also a fact that the sun shines just as well as the moon trough broken windows...
Or that the rain makes sometimes to give me smile a Rainbow even when it storms...
So maybe it was a stupid self protecting yet damaging thought that you could bare the pure naked and scarred soul that I carry...
But what if you did?
What if you could have?
And I never gave you the chance for me myself I was terrified deep down inside...
That if you loved me as whole,
I was supposed to be whole,
While I'm still in repair, in progress,
I might not be there yet, but I'm getting there...
One day I will show you all of me,
And I hope that day you'll like what you see...
Whatever that may be...

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